Am I lost?

Am I lost or this is just a phase causing the storm!Everything is so merry around but still I am striving hard for contentment!Things look simple,and yes they are but still I live in despair! Why?Asking my heart/head( as both are muddled right now so can't go prefer any) I got an answer: you are a fool; stop expecting the intelligence out of you!Am I really?Not actually!Fools too have numerous categories(think think....) and no fool admits that he belongs to any of these.So here is a proof that I live with an intelligent  head, a little hollowed by longing success-faced failures and of course a heart that knows to share,care and smile...Then why I am lost?May be because,I am dare enough to choose my own ways,follow most of them and finally end up making a complete circle! Then embellishing it with my angelic cries,salty tears,remembering and gathering all those pushy days when I never gave up! Isn't trying something in this up-to-the-minute world?

I am not what I am and I doubt that those twigs of hope that sometimes rooted me deep inside will ever blossom or this simplexed world of mine will come to an end thinking something , thinking everything.