My encounter with "The Lost"

Loosing is one of the toughest task that actually needs lot of sympathetic gestures from the self! You win - the world wins wih you and when you loose,your world gets lost...

What I have lost,
and what I have earned,
hardly matters,
for the lessons,
I have learned-

I have learned,
to be honest to self,
its what you truly owe ;
I have learned,
caring for someone,
doesn't come back always;
I have learned,
building trust and living it,
is rare to find;
I have learned,
sometimes,
the best way is to smile;
I have learned,
people loves you,
but make sure
you never stop loving yourself;
I have learned,
to fight back,
and keep fighting;
I have learned,
it takes lot of time
to become what you want to be...

After a long tym , kyun zindgi, kyun...

क्या सोचा था और क्या हों गया
जो कल अपना  था
वो तनहा छोड़ गया,

क्यूँ जिंदगी बार बार दर्द दुहराती हैं
क्यूँ बीती हुई बातों की याद दिलाती है
वो रातें जिनमें सपनो की कमी थी
वो रातें जिनमें आखों मैं नमी थी
विश्वास खो सा गया था
अपना भी अपना ना रहा था

क्यूँ जिंदगी सोचने पे मजबूर कर देती है
अतीत के उन पन्नो को 
जिन्हें हम भुला कर आगे चल दिए थे
एक नए शुरुआत की आस में
रात को  भी दिन समझ बैठे थे

क्यूँ जिंदगी एक चेहरे के भी चेहरे दिखाती है
क्यूँ जिंदगी बीती बातों को याद कर रुलाती  हैं
क्यूँ जिंदगी , क्यूँ

(क्यूँ जिन्दगी रात में कविता लिखवाती है ,
क्यूँ जिंदगी कुछ लम्हे यूही यादगार बनाती हैं ....)

New girl in the town

In the shades of life, I have a lot more to say but it feels at peace when you live talking to yourself & someone who takes care of little little hard -boiled anxities! Away from the home, but still trying to rejoice with the homly feel,I am spending the dark nights @ Mumbai (dark because I see no stars whenever I look at the sky).May be all the stars who used to twinkle, have found their place in the eyes of those who live in Mumbai... Mumbai has jagah for all, you look at the diminutive activities out here, and you'll see everybody is so busy! The beggars too have their streets and timings fixed.I find the same lady holding her child in the lap & expressing her grief with the people in reach...

Waking up in the morning,catching the over-lord bus,walking a few steps to reach office is what my day begins with!Everytime I stand at the bus stop, a cloud of living soul can be seen waiting for the bus, the bus comes, gets boarded within not more then two minutes & cloud of traffic forms again..!And if you have to cross the road,it's pointless to wait for the traffic to stop (lucky if you are at signal)! What a city,what a chipchipaha climate,what a place for the shopholic like me..

I am loving the place, experiencing the adroit globe, and fashioning the self..

Vielen Dank Mumbai :)

confined

often
the shades
of darkness
corpse you,
that you
fail to see
the bright
sun,
shining across
the sky;
you
confine
and
the world
gets more
confined.

Nowhere

i passed

a tree

turned old,

its leaves 

turned yellow,

and stem 

weak,

hollow,

it still 

make a stand,

in the burning sun;

it knows

it is

nowhere..

In a whirlpool..

Why  I am feeling the pain of loneliness?I have all around but still I am living the hollowness..

Why do I expect many times and why I do keep on saying to other- "one should not expect"..!

 I have gone through the worst times and have learned lessons but then why I feel being hurted by none other then a going to be friend?People don't understand me or I don't get them well... Am I too complex?

Why the hell I am expecting from those who don't lie anywhere in my world?Is it a human need to be appreciated by the world and live with the fantasy of adoring fans.. I don't know if I am affected by this disease bu I am not on the verge of ruining self..! I feel disturbed very often ,I get irritated soon, and i feel like living with no move to make... I am afraid,I am perplexed,I am missing the real me.. 

I need to revise , i need to get my world renovated, i need to put a boundary around..

It feels relaxed when i write;i need to discover self..

I need , i need and i need someone beside me . thank you Nishant :)

Instant..

calm,

like a tree ,

grown-up old;

like it is

breathing

the moment,

hold,

so long,

serene,

like an evening,

setting sun,

chirps,

moving back,

home,

into,

the corners,

of thoughts,

i am all,

me.

Dear Shona.. :):)

तुम्हारे लिए मेरा दिल बेक़रार है,

तुम्हारे लिए मेरा दिल बेक़रार है ,

मुझे सिर्फ तुमसे ही ,हाँ तुमसे प्यार है ,

तुम्ही मेरा प्यार हों ,

तुम्ही दिल का ........ ,

जानेमन,जाने जा ,

तुम बिन जाऊं कहाँ ,

तुम बिन जाऊं कहाँ ....

ह्म्म्म हम्म्म्म.....
लल लालालाआआअ लललाआआ लललललाआआआआआआअ .... (आई हैव तर्नेद क्रेज्ज्ज़ी ):P

Some lyrics touch the heart,and make their place to live forever;and when you are in the early days of feeling-ripple-love, nothing can be more envisaging then whispers of love....

I still remember,how these words used to be on my lips whenever I think about "you".. These words took some or the other form but the expression remained the same(trust me.. :P). Listening the same melody after so many years ,took me to the moments back..! Recalling the so many dream-love,love-dream moments, once again I am in deep love with "my life"...

Travel lone

Some words,

travel

long,

some soul,

travel

lone,

into the 

wood,

jammed-

still finding

their way,

to rest,

for a while,

deep seated.

A little space

A little space,
to rest in peace,
at sea shore
where I can
sit with my-
toes in air,
my world
remains mine.